Living on a Damned Hill in Flood Weather

This is the type of weather where you can't get anything done, you want to get out the house but not 10 steps down the street your clothes are soaked through and your shoes feel like you're walking in fish guts, another 10 steps and your skin will be so saturated you'll start to expand like a balloon beneath a tap. I say this, yet I don't need to be anywhere at all, which is nothing new, in fact it's become commonplace for me to have no real schedule, the only time anything interesting happens is on the only day in a 3 month period that I actually need to be doing something else, but for the rest of the country it's really ruining their week.

The city is as busy as sin, filled to the brim with people bustling about with presumably more agenda in one day than I plan to have for the rest of my year, considering how rude they're being to each other at any rate. Pushing and shoving, walking in to each other and acting as if the World owes them something, unless I'm sorely mistaken the only thing the majority are owed is back-taxes and a slap in the mouth, and unfortunately for them the back-taxes are debatable, whereas the slap is not.

The terror of a normal life approaches, out of the protective bubble of the British Education System and kicked into a world where there are no real guarantee's, many will be facing it in the coming months, but I only truly have to care for myself in this situation, keeping a close eye on what others do out of morbid curiosity using the many social spying tools we've been so easily been provided with, Facebook, I believe? You have to be careful not to spend all your time watching what other people are doing mind, and that's become a problem for many in this age, the fascination in other people's lives due to the ease of viewing it is causing more and more people not to really push themselves in any direction, just to watch what their friends do, even celebrities.

I have to further myself in some direction, I need to find something solid to focus on and move towards it, but with a ocean of news about minimal jobs for young people, and a landscape of optimism about infinite chance, I find myself to be caught dead center considering why anyone would set their mind to believe either/or. I'll carve my path whatever way I see fit and do almost anything to get where I want to be in life, but when you mix that attitude with uncertainty of what exactly you want, you end up with a Mexican standoff that has neither party back down, one is going to get hit, it's just a matter of time.